Hmmnn...

Who was I before?
What about now?
Can I still soar?
Or under demands bow?
Questions ever-changing,
Answers I have none.
Are my values degrading?
Or is it just 'good fun'?
The truth before all eyes,
Never can that be,
For people always try,
What they want,to see.
That's how it is,
Evermore shall't stay..
Seal these thoughts with a sigh,
And wish them far away!

Still More Random Verses..

Uncertainty mocks me,.
With her appearance.

Life balks me!
All I want is clearance.

***

Too much on my mind,
I cannot escape,
Thoughts turn unkind,
Truth hides,dully draped.

***

What remains,

Except the past?

The present is

But a farce.

Then comes a turn,

Of luck or chance.
Falling inwards?

Ride the trance!

Shivering soul,

Calls for restrain!

A brazen heart,
No love retains!

***

I light a match,
Exhilirating scratch,

The flickering flame,
Lighting my death cane...

***

Too close to turn away,
So marching onward went,

Set out to sow new seed,
Alas the land was dead!

***

Marching blindly forward,

Without plan or notion,
Walking unstopped onwards,

Just for the sake or motion.
Storm set in my eyes,
Placed there by stubborn lies.
Every action enraged,

Emotions, now uncaged!

***

Alone we came,
Alone we leave.
Arrive,they laugh.

Depart,they grieve.

***

Striving for happiness,
Obstacled by sorrow,
Shadows of the past,
Present in the morrow.

***

Head yet uncovered.
Heart still touched.
Thus i've suffered,
Remaining unlov'd.

***

Towards another,
Perhaps,a blunder?
Caution thrown...
To winds oft blown.

***

The great escape-
Away from strife,
Is not the function,
Of fulfilling life..

Yet, a purpose it serves,
Of furthering sustainenece.
By adding some verve,
To a dull existence!

***

Afterward.

Another day,without tears.
Heart not clamped by fear.
Sweet love left such pain,
Bitter thoughts,mem'ries maim.

Decision made to abandon ship,
Save myself from losing grip.
Reasons varied,expressed few,
Rift created 'twixt me and you.


***
And you're fading away,
With each passing day.
My heart's healing itself,
Kept,now,on a shelf.
Too high for you to reach,
I don't reproach nor beseech.
How could you give me,
What you never had?
My doors open wide,
But,you ain't invited inside.
Leave now,while you're lost,
Perhaps,I'll miss you most.
***

Loose Ends...

Life is but a stage!
Scenes writ on this page..
Not romance nor comedy,
Just untold adversity.

Covering up the cracks,
But they always show,
Lost in my track,
Don't know where to go.

Money,money,money!
End to insecurity,
Bills piling 'tween them,
Is there an end?

You were so close,
Why'd you leave?
Now,left with those,
Better friends,I perceive.

No talent nor skill,
Will pull me through.
Gone in a strike,
Neither flames will renew.